What am I thankful for?
I am thankful for the warm, heavy spot on my chest where my son's head lay last night as I rocked him to sleep. I am thankful for his peaceful, deep breathing as he lay so trustingly in my arms. I am thankful for the absolute joy I felt in that moment. I am thankful that God has turned my mourning into dancing.
After Matthew died, my arms literally ached with the longing to hold him. All I ever wanted was to bring him home and be able to rock him to sleep. The whole time he was in the hospital, that was my goal. To get him home. To have him all to myself. To watch him fall asleep in my arms and feel his peaceful breathing on my cheek. And when that never happened, I was crushed.
So today I am grateful that I've been blessed with another chance to have that moment with Clay. My heart overflows with thankfulness at God faithfulness over the past year and a half.
Happy Thanksgiving!
Julia,
ReplyDeleteI so love your posts! They take me back and remind me once again of God's faithfulness through the years. I remember having these exact feelings 23 years ago with Jordan! They are bittersweet, but the sweet becomes stronger, I promise!
I think of you and pray for you daily! And share in your thanksgiving!!
Love in Him,
Carol A.