Thoughts

My weekend with Jessica was wonderful! There's nothing like an old friend to help lift your spirits and do some good girl talking with. I'm a little tired from having a newborn in the room at night :) but I guess that'll help prepare me for when Matthew eventually comes home. I am so excited for Matthew to get out of here! The only hard part of having Jessica and Kirra here was the constant reminder he's stuck in the hospital. Everywhere Jessica and I went, people made lots of "ooohs" and "ahhhs" over Kirra and commented on how little she was, how cute she was, etc. Jessica kept feeling bad for me and I had to keep telling her that it was ok, I wasn't jealous :) The only thing that was hard for me was the constant reminder that Matthew can't be with me like a normal baby. You see, most of the time I forget that my life isn't normal. I get used to going back and forth to the hospital to see Matthew and when I'm with Claire, she keeps me so busy that I don't have time to think about Matthew. Every once in a while I start to feel sorry for myself, but then I move past it and just accept our not-so-normal life. But being with Jess and Kirra was a constant reminder that my life is different and it made me long for when I can finally bring Matthew home and mother him like he's a regular baby.

So yeah, that's my confession. I'm not jealous of other moms, they just remind me of how my situation is different. But don't go feeling sorry for us! Matthew is making progress every day and hopefully we'll be home soon!

(On a side note - Thanks for visiting Jess! You're a great friend and I'm glad we had that time to catch up and motivate each other :) Here's to looking like hot mamas by the end of the summer! Hehe!)